Saturday, September 27, 2008

When I'm Bored, I Drink

So obviously I've been drinking a lot lately.

Don't worry, I'm not an alcoholic yet. The German beer I've been mooching off of my dad is just that good. Seriously, if you ever get your hands on a Kapuziner, go for it. It's the one beer I've had that tastes better as it gets warmer.

So what else am I doing?

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(Nagbalik ang mga asterisk...) Anyway, I just finished reading a superb book called The Glass Books of the Dream Eaters.



If you like your fiction steeped in Victorian-era-shooting-jumping-across-roofs-repressed-erotica-behind-closed-doors-freaky-alchemical-shit, go for it. The book starts off normally enough, and then gets weird within the span of ten pages. And you're never sure what genre the book is aiming for, historical suspense, fantasy, whatever, until you're well into it, which was a plus for me. I quite enjoyed it. See more here.

The author seems to be a bit of a nut though. Methinks he should stick to writing, which is a much more credible field than positing conspiracy theories.

Of course, this now means my literary tastes have shifted once again. I think I was back in serious SF territory just before this book. Now I'm looking for more gothic supernatural fiction. My next project is The Looking Glass Wars, which I came across on (where else) Wikipedia. Hopefully it'll be just as bizarre as the one I just finished (especially since the sequel to The Glass Books is coming out in January 2009 pa. Piss-off talaga).

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Meanwhile, Wikipedia's been taking up a lot of my time. I think I've officially run out of things to look up on it. How sad.

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Living in Iligan, where, if you don't have cable you only get channel 2 and channel 7, has only increased my fascination with local TV shows. Fuck all that elitist shit about Western shows being more intelligent and edgy and socially-relevant. We all like junk food and your local telenovelas are the TV equivalent of that.

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I've been watching a lot of (gasp!) Iisa Pa Lamang of late. Man, I love our brand of cackling villainy (I'm looking at you Cherry Pie and Angelica). Angelica's acting and lines are so over-the-top and cheesy so as to be incredibly entertaining. What was her latest? Oh yes: "Kung miserable ako, damay-damay tayong lahat!" I love it! She's the sort of fabulously over-the-top baddie that I'm sure is attracting a massive gay fanbase as we speak. Of course, it helps that she's always in skimpy wear. I'm now very aware that a child star she no longer is (and I appreciate this very much). More scenes with her top falling off I say!

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I Love Betty La Fea, on the other hand, is wearing thin a bit. I liked it initially but it seems to be getting a bit formulaic. Betty goes to work, gets made fun of, has a pretty co-worker screw her over, gets yelled at by one of her pretty superiors, then manages to win somehow by the end of the episode. There seems to be no progression to the story. Obviously, comedy isn't channel 2's forte. And the one-dimensional cackling villains are not on par with their Iisa Pa Lamang counterparts. Ruffa and Wendy are getting really boring and annoying, I must say. That black guy playing the gay fashion director or whatever is still amusing though. I'm sure that's why he's there, to provide an over-the-top comic relief buffer for when everyone else gets boring.

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Seriously, you can see Ruffa's painful attempts to knock off Wilhemina from Ugly Betty and Miranda from The Devil Wears Prada. She even has a signature line a la Miranda's "That's all": "Now go!" Of course, Ruffa delivers it with far less style and punch than Meryll Streep. Tsk tsk.

Although she was an inspired casting choice though. She's very believable as a bitchy, superficial drama queen. After the entire nation being subjected to the public unfolding of her sordid family life, methinks this character is very close to her real-life persona. Maybe it's not so much acting for her as it is just being herself hehe.

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Seriously, I have no idea why the Gutierrezes have so many projects. Neither her nor her brother can act, honestly. Have you seen Richard? He's the same character in all his shows, just with a different premise for the special effects. If just being good-looking was reason enough to give people roles on TV, we should have lots more pretty young things clogging our sets. Though I suppose it has something to do with their taklesa mother who's prepared to shout down anyone who even breathes a wrong word about her kids. Histrionics palengkera-style! Honestly, can she hear herself when she's talking all that shit during interviews? I think the last bizarre interview of her I saw was when she was raising shit about Dingdong Dantes getting more attention at some underwear show while her son didn't get a proper AVP daw. Simple lang 'yan mare: Mas sikat si Dingdong sa anak mo ngayon. So why should he not get more attention than Richard? It's simple business.

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Man. Obviously, I've been watching too much TV hehe. I need to get work, if only to keep me from getting fat from sitting in front of the TV drinking beer all day.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

The Bitch is Back

So what's next?

I've been back from my volunteer program for about a week now. I'm not going to go into emotional paroxysms just yet. There shall be time for incessant emote-ing about missing friends in future entries. Meanwhile:

1. I am now unemployed.
2. I have about P20,000 worth of comic books waiting for me at my suking tindahan.
3. I have no money to get them (Obviously. Saving has never been one of my strong points.)
4. I want to move out because, after living without parental rules for six months, I can't just come home and settle in like before. I suddenly realized I'm 24 and still at home with the folks.
5. I'm not really sure what I want to do, honestly.
6. I haven't unpacked yet.

So much has happened to me over the past half year, and I've got a lot on my mind in terms of the things I want to be involved in now, the kind of work I want to do. I definitely still want to do development work, but something a mite more high profile than what I was doing before my volunteer program, something that allows me to interact with a wider range of people.

And let's be honest, something that pays more. Don't get me wrong, I loved my first job, it was great experience, and my co-staff and the kids I worked with were great, but I was pretty much making minimum wage. Doesn't make for a lot of moving-out money. Or picking-up-P20,000-in-comic-books money.

Working in Iligan definitely made a huge impact on me. I definitely want to do peace work now, and if there's a chance, I'm there. Of course, that's not really a big thing here in Imperial Manila, and I really don't know where to start looking.

I've felt old for a while now, but looking at requirements for jobs in big international organizations is making me realize how young and inexperienced I am. Having a masters wouldn't hurt too, apparently. But I'm not ready just yet to go back to school. I'm afraid I'll binge-drink every night and fuck up my thesis, as I am wont to do with most paperwork. And I definitely want to do it on my own; I am not asking my parents to pay for it. Breaking out of my propensity for parental dependence is paramount to my self-esteem right now.

I have been toying with the idea of (don't judge me) a call center, temporarily, just so I can make enough to move out, buy what I need to buy and get out on my own. But then after all my experiences with all the NGOs we managed to work with over this past half year... I suppose it wouldn't exactly be putting my learnings to good use. And for what, a fat paycheck?

But man, I am stewing in the house. And if there's one thing I've learned over this program, it's that I need to grow up and get out on my own, and no job is too undo-able if it'll allow me to do that. Let's just say I'm keeping my options open.

It is kind of fun, though, having everything open and undefined before me right now. That uncertainty means I can pretty much go into anything I want to right now. And it's nice not having to be responsible for anything for a bit. I know it'll end soon enough, but I'm sort of enjoying it while I can.